This is a concept that has been on my mind for months now. Arguably, 'self' is on everyone's mind most of the time, from the time we are small and shouting "mine!" through an adulthood of carefully managing image and self-image. Ironically, the journey to shed self-absorption can only be travelled through a degree of self-reflection.
I think we spend a lot of time thinking about who we are, about who people think we are, about the sides of ourselves we want to hide. Living online brings this to the fore as well, whether you use an alias or your full name, an avatar or your photo, and the 'voice' and details you choose to share. It's uncomfortable thinking for someone who is seeking authenticity, as I know many of us are.
This isn't a crisis or a storm. It is a quiet question, a gazing, a path to wander along. I am the choices I make, but I am not my preferences, opinions and internal chatter. I am not my hair (great song by the way, check it out), or my clothes, although those choices tell you a little a bit who I want to be, maybe. I'm looking forward to getting to know me a little better.
Tools for the expedition into the interior:
- journal and pens
- magazine images (cheap and easy way to let your intuition speak to you)
- time, alone time
- the Zen Habits website
- Liz Elayne's blog
- Megg's new website
- These books:
- Zen is stupid podcast
- a mirror
- a camera
- a quiet place